| "and from the sidelines you see me run, until im out of breath, living the good life..." |
[16 Feb 2005|08:03pm] |
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have you ever overheard a conversation, not intentionally, but when those key words stick out and you notice it deals with you, you begin to force yourself to keep listening to the conversation. Maybe by sitting down next to them or drop your pencil on purpose to hear alittle bit more. This weekend at the group meeting i noticed alot of topics dealt with my life. but they weren;t supposed to. it was only supposed to be a listening meeting, but it wasn't this time. no, it was a understandng one. and for a split second i began to live thier lives. dishonest. honest. "what is honest?" i thought. what is right? what is wrong? it is your personal opinion either way right? and i kept contemplating weither or not to believe what i was hearing. if it was only gibberish and useless and fake information. but it was real even if it never happened. it was oh' so real.
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| when everything is lonly i can be my own best friend.get a coffee and paper,have my own conversation |
[12 Feb 2005|09:48pm] |
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So in my own little world, trying hard to improve, and i suddenly notice theres a new dog on the block. Across the street the little dog barks. i put it behind me and go on with life, but can't quit noticing that he's calling the our dogs in the neighbor hood and passing the word about this unknown dog, this new dog. And the dog keeps walking as if he heard something in another language, not even giving a glance to the words the dog was saying. He turned the corner and notices another dog, barking and barking. I stand there and think to my new self. Sooner than later, all of the dogs are chowing him down, thier trying to intimidate this new dog, and in all reality, all the dog wants to do is walk and meet others who accept him. A neighborhood of dogs yelling. they don't stop, not until he leaves thier home. it reminded me of the news in a wierd way. the barks got louder and i noticed that the dog was coming back my way. He came up to me and sat. and i couldn't grasp what this dog was try to tell me. it was as if he loved me because i was the only thing that wasn't bothered by him, that wasn't yelling at him to leave. the only thing that accepted him. i looked at him and said "it'll be alright dog, you'll find your place one day." akwardly, it nodded as if it understood what i said, and went on his way, alone, to the next neighborhood with hope of acceptance.
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| I know that it is freezing but think we have to walk... |
[09 Feb 2005|07:32pm] |
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So did you ever think that the way we live in our everyday lives has been thoroughly thought out and planned? Machines is where im getting at. School. Home. Sunrise. Sunset. it has been a routine since the second we were born. wake up. work all day. play. go to sleep. and repeat it the next time the pink sunrise overcomes the thick black skies. it has all been planned out perfectly so no matter how "unique" and "individual" we all want to be, the higher power always takes over. This conversation came up in English today, and i, as usual, sat back in my own little world and listened to everyone's opinion on this controlled society that we live in day in and day out, even though some were completely off topic and pointless. I then thought to myself that it is true. we are machines. controled by some leader, if its our teachers or principle, officers of the law, or the beautiful, or not so beautiful mother nature. School was the perfect example. everyone rushing into classes around 7:30 am. give or take a couple of seconds, a minute at tops. We all stand together, say the pledge together, as if we were mesmorized and forced to say this "apostle's creed" of our country every morning. Bell rings for the next class. we all roam and enter our class in 1 minutes or less. Lunch bell rings. We all sworm like little ants who's pile has just been kicked by a human's shoe. Throughout the day, examples keep telling me this awful topic that i have never really sat down to think about, is true. May we never be unique or different. Sure we are in our minds, but on the outside. Will we always have to follow the rules of society, the rules of life?
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| These bars are filled with things that kill, but now you probably should have learned... |
[07 Feb 2005|05:30pm] |
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So it was 5th period and i shut everything around me on mute while i listened to my cd player and read my new novel "One Flew Over a Cookoo's Nest." Class had started and i can see everyone arguing over a poem they had read outloud. I kept reading and entered my own world, more like the world of the main character in the book. It was as if i was in a movie, living it. the words slowly turned into focus,reality, and i was suddenly in the insane ward and watching everything happening second by second as if i were standing right next to the Chief, the main charater, while he explained everything that happens. I made my own faces for different people. my own personalities for everyone. I paint my own masterpiece, and for a quick second i thought i was actually there, confused about which world i was really in. It seemed almost real. but was it? i kept watching from both worlds. words being exchanged. i saw lovers turning into monsters. i saw an ocean turn turn into a dry piece of land. "ris, ris" i looked up and paused my cd player. "chris please take your ear phones off and pay attention" said mr. kasenow. all eyes were on me as if i had just committed a murder. They all turned back around and were hypnotized back on the poem, discusing, arguing. and i sat there silent, contemplating to myself which world i would have rather stayed in...
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| i drifted off into this magical land, and here's what i have to say about it... |
[06 Feb 2005|07:52pm] |
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The morning had just peaked. i could see a slight bit of the pink sunrise through the trees in my backyard. I simply got out of bed for some awkward reason, as if something was pushing me to go outside, and on the way out not forgetting my pack of ciggs. and my cd player, who happen to have the new bright eye's cd inside. I steped out and breathed fresh into my lungs and felt what life was willing to offer me. I sparked up and sat down to think how life has been treating me. Good i thought. no, more like perfect. The life of freedom. The life of lives. It felt almost soothing, as if i had accomplished something in life, but didn't know what. i thought of the most incredible night i had in a while, with friends laughing and smiling and ejoying themselves; the night of bright eyes. Then i thought how good my friends were to me, and how we share this great bond. I kept flashbacking quickly through some great times. I thought about the people i have betrayed and left and felt sad for them. I thought of how wonderful music was to my ears and how the feeling was unexplainable. How it all made sense and i didn;t know why. and how everything he talked about was right. How whats so easy in the evening, in morning is such a drag. How what is normal in the evening, in the morning is insane. and how it all fit to my life. It was as if i have been to this magical land, and i came back to tell this beautiful story. "Which drug shall we be tonight?" we ask ourselves, and awnsering simply "let it choose for us." My life my seem crazy to some, and regular to others. All i know is it's amazing how...
My radio alarm for school clicked on. My eyes creeped open to focus on the pitch black sky outside while the radio played low...
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| Was it more than attraction and a physical lust..? |
[24 Oct 2004|05:30pm] |
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Well i never write cause i think this is dumb. but for those who actually do read...my weekend was estatic. I got out of school early. went to my brothers dorm, ate, "chilled" with jeff. Got to the faint concert after i took "it". Justin had been telling me the girl he was with brought her sister, so i was excited to see who it was. She got there and i was in shock for two reasons. A) she was really hott. and B) i had known her. but when i knew her she was totally different. it was sorta like meeting her for a second time, but this time really into her. We chilled..but i was kinda getting back vibes from her? she didnt want to walk around and all, and i thought maybe it was because of me. but it wasn't...i guess she was tierd or w/e. TV ON THE RADIO was amazing. they played really fucking good. i loved them more than i had before. With THE FAINT waiting to get on...shit hits the fan. we stood there and stood there some more. almost an hour waiting because of the fucking mics. they came on. everything was all good. i was having fun...sort of off "it" but not really. i loved dancing. i was going crazy and i was with this aweosme new girl i met. After, in hoping i would see her the day after, i said bye and left with my brother to go see and "chill" with jeff again. chris cater stayed over aba's.
Saturday i woke up early. my brother picked zeb and i up and we were ready for the beach. And yes we were going with her too. it was cool. we all "chilled" as friends and i rally had fun. After we "chilled" some more and went to see TEAM AMERICA, which i laughed at alot. With no where to go, we went our seperate ways. i went to wyatt's with zeb and chris. and i chilled some more.
thats about all of my weekend. hopefully i get to see her soon again. she was really cool. :)
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| "...nobodys romancing cause its to early for dancing, ut hear comes the music..." |
[28 Sep 2004|03:50pm] |
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Well i guess things have been ok. I have definatly bringing all my grades up which im super happy about. Today i was shipped my "FAINT" ticket some im ready to go OCTOBER 22.
This weekeneds waves were AMAZING!!! I sufed really really good. i went with my one of my best freind, Antonio. i was hoping to meet my cousin and stuff but unfortunatly i didnt see him. im heart goes out to my fellow surfer, whoever you are, you go down in my books as a hero. i hope your in a great place now. Catching the perfect mellow, clean, 12 foot sets that we all love to wish to surf down here in miami. Im sorry it happened to you. your a good guy man, a good guy.
Im sorry some people dont like me. its a shame that they dont when i have done nothing to them but try to please them. well its ok, i guess what comes around goes around. sorry again.
my silent movie has gone around school. i showed it the day the sub was there. Ms. Hanks asked me yesturday if she has heard of a silent movie. I was surprised and asked how she has heard of it. She told me it had gone around school from teachers and sudents and she wanted to see it. I simply said, "it was i who made it". i showed and and she was shocked. with all first cuts, no mess ups and not being edited, Ms. Hanks was surprised that i accomplished such a great and wonderful movie, that was almost flawless. it made me happier than ever. i actually am good at something. well other than drumming and surfing. :)
so thats me so far. goodday to you who like me and you who dont.
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| guess what guess what guess what guess what guess what |
[17 Sep 2004|03:24pm] |
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IM GOING TO SEE "THE FAINT" in October at the Polish American Club. everyone should come. only $20 with everything (tickets, shipping and all) at epoplife.com :)
In other shitty ass news, i have to stay home alone this weekened to watch my twin brother and sister who are 6. Saturday at about2 im getting picked up to go to my grandmothers, but still i have to stay in. so this weekend sucks alot of dick. but its all good cause i need to study. well have fun guys.
goodbye
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[08 Sep 2004|04:09pm] |
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So school isn't doing any better, but everyone being there for me makes it better. TRoday my chem. teacher started talking about people panicing. She was saying the exact thing i felt. As if i was in a cloud and i couldnt get out. And i was screaming for help but no one could hear. As if i were in a world and no one was there. Im not ganna get everything i want in life, in fact im not ganna get half of what i want. truth? yes. unfortunatly.
Theres always someone in your life, some one who you look up to, who makes you just want to be exactly like them inside. Some one who you can tell anything and not be scared. someone who is your best friend. someone who gives you that extra will power and energy to suceed even if your falling. You know who you are. Thanks and i love you man.
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| "...maybe she thinks i know something, maybe, maybe she thinks is fine..." |
[07 Sep 2004|03:41pm] |
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Monday was good surf. it was SECRET SURF. i have a shit load of work in school and im starting to think that im going no where in IB. Its so hard and so pointless that i dont have the will power anymore. im trying but i feel like people arn't even trying and doing better. Its killing me. and im sure im not going to UM because even if i make it i won't be able to pay fuck 30,000 a year. so im not ganna be with my brother. and i KNOW im not ganna get UM free cause m not getting a perfect or w/e on the SAT and shit. so fuck it.
Today in math i sat back, had almost like a daydream about reality. what we are living in. I noticed that we really dont see reality and what it is. In math he talked about all this giberish, and i figured, "when will i use this in life?". When will i use half of what school teachs me and us? Its like teaching us about Car Engines or something that we will NEVER use unless we are mechanics or something. But you dont see it that way do you? you dont see it because we are blinded by reality and what we are really learning. We dont need IB, but somehow, its better for us. I bet that people in regular schools with straught A's and B's will succeed just as much as us...and probavly having alot more fun. I dont have any idea why i thought of all of this, but it has really opened my mind to see something new. Im not saying everything is bad like unfortunatly Spanish, history and English and maybe some Arts but Chem. and Pre-Cal and shit like that is pointless, and even if i will be a chemist or something, i will still have to go through everything again in Chem. school. so what the fuck? anyone with me? anyone think the same?
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| Why dont the newscasters cry when they read about people who die |
[04 Sep 2004|06:49am] |
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Francis isnt even ganna hit us. hope everyone is ok in the hurricane but this shit fucked up my weekend. Its straight. i had a amazing time on wedensday and thursday so its straight straight. I surfed the shit out of Miami on thursday. I ripped it up. it was a blast with tonio, Henery, zeb, danny and dustin and Al. That shit was intense.
I hope this shit blows by and i can go out sunday. we'll see. ill talk to you guys later. have fun. goodbye
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| its kansas city ima show you how we do it |
[25 Aug 2004|06:58pm] |
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Well guys, havnt written in a while. Lots of stuff has been happening. School sucks. i real dont like the IB life and what is expected from me. how am i ganna accomplish all of it.
On lighter news, last weekend was amaizng and this weekend is my birthday weekend (for those who dont know, its the 30th). Party crazy times this wekend. I am getting a cell so i will tell everyone one the number.
Everyone knows that i hate rap. i cant stand it. i like want to die when i hear it. Now, i have found a new rap group...and its the only rap i like but it is one of the most amazing things i have ever heard. Everyone go check out "TECH N9NE" . i promise you will love it. its intense. d/l a song called "Alive" and "Psycho Bitch". trust me everyone, you will love me. haha.
I CANT WAIT TO PARTY THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!
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| "...no one notices the contrast of white on white..." |
[16 Aug 2004|07:44pm] |
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so school started. saw alot of people i missed. I got alot of comments on my hair, which is good i guess. luckly i didnt cut it. Although it is annoying at times. This summer can sum up to be the greatest for me. I tried new tings. hung out with my best friends. Had crazy nights of endless partying. and now school started. Time to get on track right? well its hard. im trying but i dont think i can make it. im trying though, thats what counts right?
Other than that, alot of people looked good today. such as the twins and solange and greta and janessy and keandra and javier and many more. Everyone looked like new people. i wonder if i looked new to them. Other than that, school sucks my ass and i never want to go back, but unfortunatly i have to. so ill be seeing you guys tommorow yes? guess so.
I have been listening to the old Counting Crows. Who likes the old Counting Crows? anyone...go hear them. download "Round Here" or "Mr. Jones". lets see if you will like.
ill slap the shit out of you
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| i always new you were, such a sucker for that... |
[09 Aug 2004|04:51pm] |
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Well today has been boring. I figured im going up to miami wedensday till the end of the weekend, so call me if you want to chill (786 419 0736) and lets see what we can do. Im dreading school, alot alot alot. Havn't done much of the summer assignments, no one invites me for the "get togethers" or anything. but its all good. I wish i was surfing right now. fuck that, im ganna drive down to South tomrow and surf. yeah...
you can do anything if you put your mind to it...
birthday coming up, what will you get me...hmmm...do you guys even know my birth date?
Sometimes it suprises me who pops up in my head when death is near. When your stuck under water for almost longer than you can hold your breath. It surprised me who's face poped up. Its the one you guys least expect. yeap, you.
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| hey unfaithful. hey ungraceful. hey unloving, i will love you... |
[08 Aug 2004|04:12pm] |
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Well the wonderful summer i have been having will come to an end. All the great times i had with all my best friends that i love. There were a few people i wanted to hang out with that i didnt have the chance to, but maybe it was for a reason, or maybe it wasn't and it just didnt happen. Other than that everything went perfect. I worked my ass off, got tons of money, partied almost everynight, surfed the best i could surf, got a sexy tan, and even met new/fun/great people.
And so, school starts again. the hardest of hard. The worst years of IB have begun, and we will die soon. if we help eachother, and give eachother confidence, we will succeed. im room 112, anyone else?
goodnight my blissful dreams, gooday my nightmares.
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| until the gun goes...CLICK |
[29 Jul 2004|04:39pm] |
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Well this week i am done with work. Friday trough sunday = partying. Monday through sunday = crazy times at cocoa, surfing it up and aving a blast every night. And the last week is just a crazy week, where ill make the best of the summer. I hope everyone has had a great time this summer, i know i have for sure. Meeting new people and trying new things, it has been amazing.
Then school starts. hell starts. and we will all die, and die alone. :)
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| there once was a little red ball that rolled and rolled and... |
[22 Jul 2004|06:28pm] |
havn't written in a while. So much going on in my life. Work parties. Crazy side of life people would just think about and never plan to do...its been happening. I have been living the life that i wanted to know. Long night, crazy parties. I leave to Cocoa Beach the 1st of Aug. and im ganna have a blast there. Spending all of my summer with my brother has been something i have always wanted to do. Its been great. I passed my AP. i have been kicking ass at Pool. like major ass. and thats about it. i miss some people i thought i wouldn't miss...
thats all i have to say.
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| i got a bad feeling about this...i got a bad feeling... |
[08 Jul 2004|05:01pm] |
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So this weekend was a fun weekend. I drove around miami with Danny, Chris, and my brother on friday, ending at John's house with Tonio and zeb. Saturday was cool too. Went to a party. Had an ok time with Thomas and Chris. Sunday was perfect until the evening. Went to sunset around noon wuth Chris and zeb once again. Talked to YOU from Texas. made me miss you more. Infact with all the fun i have had, you still have been on my mind.
Well another one of the biggest news aropund is my band. Now consiting of the famous and amaizng THOMAS C. and Antonio have gotten together, picking me as thier drummer, to start a band. The upcoming headline band of miami. My friend Will is trying to start a recording company, and maybe we get help from him. Still in need for a Bassist, so if you know any, IM me or tell me and i'd really appreciate it. NEW SET THIS WEEK! im ready to rock out more than life. More than...than...anything. Lets get together and become rock stars...what do you say?
happy thoughts :)
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| "the hardest part is trying to figure out what your thinking. is it the same, or totally different?" |
[05 Jul 2004|03:47pm] |
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So here i am, home at last. And a bit closer to you. :) I wish there was an easy way to explain the way i feel. Please tell me what you feel. I was far from you this weekend. As if we were in distinct states. And i would always think of you...whyo you were with. how much fun you were having. If you were thinking of me too. so many things would race through my head and i wondered if they would race through yours too. Under the stars last night, i thought of the times we had fun together. and it was just nice thoughts while the mind-blowing fireworks went off that made me happier at that moment that i had been all trip. I can't wait to see you. and then your off for that long period of time, and i'll be here, tied up and confused...wondering all the things i wonder and missing you. I hope you will be too.
"...Like Snow. Like Gold..."
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[30 Jun 2004|09:10pm] |
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Hopes flowed up and down like waves at the beach. 'shes coming' 'oh wait, maybe she won't'...but all i was praying was that you were ganna come. Not paying any attention to the movie, my only thought was your smile and my memories of you. 'damn she hasn't called...she probably wont' i said to myself...you call. i freakout but hold it in. its you. your coming. i couldn't help but smile the rest of the movie until you were there. The night was filled of joy, after all, i finally got to see you which was the most important thing. i wanted to hold your hand..but held back seeing if you did too...but i really wnated to. i missed that feeling. sometimes i wonder what will happen in the future. my hopes get up like tonight...i hope thats a good thing. i get in the car after saying bye to you and i couldnt help but go back to missing you until the next time i see you.
i miss you.
<33333333333333 x 10000000000000
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| "...when these cold winter nights, without you next to me, it feels like 20 below.." |
[21 Jun 2004|01:28pm] |
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Last night was the night i had been waiting for...it was just perfect. I picked her up. Her and i in the trunk sitting there almost secluted as if we were in another world. no one really paying any attention to us...except for our selves. and at that moment, it didnt seem to bother me, because it was her i was with. So together we were, cramped...and i pretended to mind, but deep down, it brought me closer to her, which i was happy about. We headed for sunset with my brother, chris, zeb, diana, her, and i in route for watching a movie, Dodgeball...
We became closer. "...should i kiss her?" i kept thinking to myself. I dont think she wants to. it can wait. maybe next time. maybe not. for all that mattered was that i was with her. and that by all means made me happier than i have been in a long time.
"...i wish i could have someone to walk next to and be with..." said Tony. I stopped for a nano second and realized i was with her. walking with her. i had someone...someone to walk with and talk with and go to the movies with. something Tony lacked. and i smiled even more...
<3 thank "you" for a great night
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[20 Jun 2004|11:01am] |
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'ring ring ring' "caller id unavalible" it said...i was happy that someone called...anyone. "hmm...who could it be?" I pick up...heart stops. i know its her. i find somehting to say. anything. shocked. speechless. overjoyed. we carry on about our days. and our hopeful tommorow. and my cheeks hurt from the constant smiles because of this moment. you leave. i sigh of releif. walk inside. laydown on my feather pillows. close my eyes. and dream happy thoughts...
you <3
new info. page. :)
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| "...and oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning, wrap your lovely arms around me.." |
[19 Jun 2004|05:43pm] |
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I dial each number slowly, anxious, but at the same time nervous and scared to talk to you. 'press send' and i put my ear to the phone. i hoped that you would pick up. 'beep beep beep'. "good i wasn't ready i said to myself". 2 mintues later i fiund the courage to call once again. I follow the same routine, put the phone to my ear hoping that you pick up. 'beep beep beep'. bummed out i don't call again and i wait a while. Eat at Fudruckers but still have you on my mind...hopeing that my last atempt, i will finally hear what i want to hear, your voice. Dial slowly. Press send. Phone to the ear. 'beep beep beep'. confusion takes over...and again i realize that seeing you today will not happen...
"...and oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning, wrap your lovely arms around me..."
finding the feeling was easy, expressing it is a whole other different story...
new phone for weekends ONLY. call me. 786-419-0736. a surprise call by anyone would make my day...try it ;)
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| "...this is what i get for wanting more, for wanting more..." |
[16 Jun 2004|05:58pm] |
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Its getting closer and closer as we speak. as we think. as we want and pray. As the sun goes down ,and the clock strickes 12...it is the day you come home. It is the day i get happy again. It is the day that makes me want to jump for joy, as if i had just accomplished somehitng great. Lookig at the clock every 5 seconds only makes your arrival slower...so i have to do somehting to occupy my time.
Work sucked my ass today...but i know im getting alot of money at the end of the week. and we could go eat sushi and have starbucks with it...so it will be fun...and its worth it...i hope it works out. I hope everyone is having a great summer like i am...and it gets beter tommrow!
<3
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| "..its always YOU in my big dreams..." |
[15 Jun 2004|09:57pm] |
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I got outside, alittle break from everything. I sit down on my chair and close my eyes, wondering what everyone is doing at this point in time. Partying. Out somewhere unknown to me. Having fun. and im here, sitting and wondering. But these times arn't the worst you know. These times make me think, and for the past few days, they have been the times where i have thought about you more than anytime. I sit, look at the stars, and wonder if your looking at them to. and if you are, we can be together in a sense. Yeah people think im crazy for thinking this already, maybe even you. For thinking about you so much. But i can't help. I wish you'd know. Or maybe im blinded and you do know exactly what im talking about.
you called, and again i wasn't with the person you called. Wasn't with the phone. And i got sad. Im sorry i missed it again. you dont know how much i want to talk to you...and can't. but soon you come home, and i can talk to you whenever. and i can be extra happy again...like the times before you left. :) I miss you. "Happy thoughts" run through my head all day and night, and keep me going, keep me waiting...waiting on my tipy-toes until you come back.
:) you
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[15 Jun 2004|10:35am] |
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Working hard as hell and got a break. I am Supervisor for three guys and im getting payed mad money. This weeks work is ganna be like 200 dollar pay. haha amazing!!!
This morning i went by myself to run tasks given by my mom. Cat Power was on, and i felt like this memory would oce again appear when i first get my car. I kept thinking of you and when you were getting back. i kept wishing it was tommrow to later realize i still have to more days...i'd sigh and keep moving on. I hope you get back soon...i just hope so. I just want to see you and give you and big hug and tell you i missed you alot. just know that. : )
Thinking happy thoughts...just for you.
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Today out the miracle of God, you came online. you made my day. My Week. My everything. I cant wait to see you soon. I miss you. i hope all is well. i hope your having the time of your life. :)
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